"And so now I've finally gotten the courage to give up and let go of you. And NO, I haven't moved on to another guy; I've just moved on."

"Leave The Pieces"
Artist: The Wreckers

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round

You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown

[Chorus]
And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let memove on

Don't concern yourself
With this mess you've left for me
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone

[Chorus]

You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Chorus]

Leave the pieces when you go
Oh, yeah
Leave the pieces when you go
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,yeah
Leave the pieces when you go

To D, the funny feeling is true. I'm sorry.

This was taken at Mount Carmel, Lipa, Batangas. More pictures soon.

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I hate it when I have to wrestle with a poor internet connection. I can't function well. Will be back when I get a good connection.

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Still thinking if I'd go to Baby Basti's party. I promised Sandra I'd go if it doesn't rain.

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Just had a nice foot massage. Now if I could have a body massage. Maybe tomorrow.

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Unfinished

Bessie could see her eyes sparkling, and her smile exudes kilig, like that of a teenager dreaming about her crush.

"Hindi ka pa ba tatayo dyan?" Bessie's getting impatient.

"One more minute, please?" Jaimee shot back.

Bessie rolled her eyes. Bessie recognizes this familiar look on Jaimee's face. She has known Jaimee long enough to know what's really going on. She has seen Jaimee get high on love, on how she defied everything just because she's so in love. She knows once Jaimee falls, she falls too hard. And yes, she was there when Jaimee fell, got shattered and torned. She remembers the day when Jaimee came to her, in tears -

"Ganun ba talaga? Bakit ang sakit? Ang sakit pala..."

Bessie could only console her by saying that pain is a part of the package. From then, she has seen Jaimee slowly pick up the pieces. It took a long time for Jaimee to finally let go.

And now, Jaimee is back to her old self again.

Impulsive.

Stubborn.

Di na natuto, as Bessie would put it.

"Andyan na, you're so impatient talaga!" Jaimee snapped.

The smile still won't fade. To Jaimee, the mornings are more beautiful, though the skies are a bit gloomy. Love songs are more mushier, she even plays the same song over and over again and each time she plays it, it's like she's hearing it for the first time. She never gets tired of it. And she even paints a dream in her head with that love song, with him taking her in his arms, dancing under the moonlight. Yes, that's Jaimee, the hopeless romantic.

Bessie pinched Jaimee. "May I remind you na mali yang ginagawa mo, I hope you realize that before it's too late"

Jaimee heard Bessie, but she just smiled back.

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A friend emailed me this story, she has no blog yet. I told her I'd post this for her.

one pathetic afternoon...

Jane: neri
riccicutie: yeps
Jane: natatawa ako sa ating 2
Jane: hahahha
riccicutie: bakit na namna?
Jane: or baka ako lng baliw
Jane: hehhehe
riccicutie: bakit nga?
Jane: kasi ngayon klng naisip kng san san natin balak magpunta eh
Jane: hehehe
Jane: sa singapore
Jane: ngayon sa canada nmn
Jane: para tayong tanga
riccicutie: oo
riccicutie: ano p
riccicutie: ano pa
riccicutie: naisip mo rin pala yun
Jane: hahaha
Jane: kaya ngayon klng narealize parang ndi kana excited
riccicutie: hehe
Jane: feeling ko tuloy oo k nlng ng oo sakin
riccicutie: sus
Jane: para tumahimik ako
Jane: hahahha
riccicutie: naku jane, anywhere but here
riccicutie: kahit saan, basta magkasama tayo
Jane: yun canada log term pa nmn eh
Jane: pwede pa tau sa singapore muna
riccicutie: yeah
riccicutie: oo nga
riccicutie: na explain mo na kanina
riccicutie: so anong uunahin natin?
Jane: punta tau [agency] para pa assess ka
riccicutie: sige
Jane: tpos kng machugi na tau d2 by [before this year ends]
riccicutie: kelan ba?
riccicutie: basta di ako pede this week
Jane: fly tau sa singapore walk in
riccicutie: okay
Jane: next week nlng sa sat
riccicutie: maganda yang planong yan
riccicutie: sige
Jane: ndi ba plastic yan
riccicutie: ano ka ba
Jane: talgang nagagandahan ka sa idea ko
Jane: hhahha
riccicutie: kahit saan nga ako e
riccicutie: basta wag lang kay [the EX-boss]
riccicutie: kahit ano, kakagatin ko
riccicutie: heheh
riccicutie: basta kasama ka, kakayanin ko
Jane: hahahha
riccicutie:
Jane: naku tayo nlng pala aasahan nating 2
riccicutie: oo nga
Jane: tayo nlng magkakampi sa mundong ito
riccicutie: i have you, you have me
Jane: ang lakas ko asa iyo na neri
riccicutie: you and me against the world ang drama natin
Jane: wala na kay [Jane's BF]
riccicutie: hehehe
Jane: ikaw na ang source of strength ko
Jane: hahaha
riccicutie: and you're like my shining star
riccicutie: i'd be so lost without you
Jane: me too
Jane: sniff sniff
riccicutie: aawww
Jane: you complete me
Jane: hehehe
riccicutie: sniff sniff

--Pooh is leaving us. Tomorrow is his last day. Oh, by the way, Pooh is not his real name, it's Alfried. Cheche baptized him with the name since he looks cute and cuddly. Pooh to me is more like a brother, than a friend. I could discuss anything with him comfortably. I'm sad that he's finally leaving, but happy at the same time, since I know he'd have a better life where he's going to.

--I feel sick. Clogged nose, and an imminent flu coming. I could feel my bones stinging and my eyes burning. Naku, bawal magkasakit! I've gulped tons of water since the day started. I hope this doesn't push through.

--Inaatake na naman ako ng pimples. Leche. 26 na, di pa rin ako tigilan. Kainis.

--There's another plan setup by Jane. Next to Singapore... Canada! Bahala na si batman.

--My Team is planning an outing sometime October, before we get scattered away. Swimming in Los Banos.

--Chismis trivia for the day: Buntis daw si Kris!

--Am hunting down B, yung may foreigner na jowa. Mama Greysi, if you're reading this, thanks for the tip =)

--Bored to death at work.

--Can't post pics (of Jaimie's baptism) until weekend, the laptop is with my sister.

--Loving Aiza's voice.

--Had free lunch at Teriyaki Boy, at Eastwood City Walk with the whole Spy Team. Thanks to Geoff for the treat!

--Bagong paborito ang ice cream sa mini stop, choco flavor, of course!

--Had finally handed Jane and Janin the artsy nudes. Will ask permission from the girls which of the photos I could post here. Watch out!

--Trying out the new moisturizer from Olay since my face had dried up too much (as the wicked sister puts it: parang yung putik na nanuyo because of El Nino, complete with the dried lines and all!). A bit pricey, but as my never-ending motto goes, why deprive myself?

--Can't wait till 6PM hits the clock!

riccicutie is a very very happy girl!!!

Random nothings...

-- Bagong paborito ang 'Reyna ng Quezon City' by Juana.

-- My bunch [Jane, Inggo, Rica, Wil, Pooh] are planning to eat out with Emma. Emma is leaving for Singapore this Saturday and starting on a new job.

-- New word learned - butu. I'm not writing here the meaning of the word. I got it from Inggo, go figure!

-- Happy for Pooh Bear, he bagged the Best Employee of the Quarter Award. It's time his efforts get recognized. If you know how hard Pooh works, you'll understand he could even have the Employee of the Year Award.

-- I'm not working. Not. working. Walang gana. I haven't done any cases yet. All I did was surf, add Mp3s to my iPod, and chat.

-- Bakit kamo walang gana? Our team is doomed to be abolished soon! Maybe by December. That means, I'll be transferred to my previous team (read:itatapon pabalik). The mere sight of my ex-boss triggers my system to vomit. I am not joking, pag nakikita ko ang pangit nyang face (not to mention a more uglier attitude), umiikot ang tyan ko, creating a wild stir at the pit of my stomach, at nasusuka talaga ako.

-- Jane and I are plotting the greatest escape, before our so-called-careers tragically crash into doom. The plan is to escape to Singapore. Yes, Singapore. I hate this feeling. The feeling of uncertainty.

-- I am SMARTER. Well, according to a good friend. I've switched from Smart to Globe, that is. After having my old mobile number since forever -- I've had this since 2001, I switched without any hesitations. And why? Kasi, Nanay got a notice from Globe that they're giving her this sort of 'loyalty award' where she could avail for another line for only 250 a month with a brand new cellphone! Like me, Nanay grabbed the award thingy without having second thoughts. She kept the new cell phone, while I had the new SIM.

-- I placed the old Smart SIM on Nanay's old cellphone, just in case someone important contacts me through that number. Weird thing is, when I checked the Inbox, I found few messages dating from two years back. Weird, since only keep recent messages in my cellphone (recent means the oldest message would be a month ago). One of the messages there was from W, telling me not to hesitate to give hime a call if I reached 40 and still single. My sort of marriage proposal thingie.

-- I'll be seing W on Sunday, along with other College buddies (Jeff and Owsie's little angel is getting baptised this Sunday, and I'm one proud ninang). Thanks to fwendster, I could easily stalk him, and according to his newly posted photos, he hasn't changed a bit. Yeah, the feeling is gone, that I can honestly say. But I still fancy the thought of the might-have-beens, could-have-beens and if-onlys.

-- I think I might grab the dream lens, maybe, just maybe.. Bahala na. But I'm excited (giddy giddy feeling inside).

-- Louraine and I are going to Qiuiapo this Saturday. It's time to spend some quality time with this sister of mine. When D and I are still going out, my weekends are usually occupied with us watching movies, strolling the malls, going to places, etc etc. It was just this time that I've realized that I've seldom spent any time with this little mutt. Since Jaene is far and away, all I have left to pinch, hug, and bite (yes, I bite!) is Louraine.

-- Quality time? in Quiapo? Yes, we're scouring hidalgo inch by inch to find the cheapest lens available. Louraine will be able to appreciate this, since she's into photography, too! One of Louraine's courses this semester includes photography, and she's had her very own SLR! Tripple yay since she's also learning (and mastering) tricks in photoshop!

-- I'm planning to go jogging every mornings... Wake up at 5:30AM, jog until 6:30, prepare for work after and leave for office at 7:15. Bakit? Kasi, since I came from US, lahat na lang ng makasalubong ko are telling me na "tumaba ka a!".. the next person who's telling me that I'm fat is getting a punch on the nose.. haha.. pikon ako e.

isa kang malaking tukso!!!



this will be good when i'm travelling with my baby rebel with no PC within my reach

o santa claus o santa claus!!!

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still not finished with my LA pics.. two more photoshoots have piled up, the first one is with Jane and Janin - a sort of artsy nude pictorial (naks!) and the second one is at Tagaytay when I was with Nanay on their wedding anniversary.