christmas air and the song

christmas is already getting near at hand here at eastwood. christmas tunes are heard over at the citiwalk, christmas lights and decorations have started to fill up the walls, doorposts, poles, a big christmas tree, about 15 feet high, is now being assembled in the lobby of our building. i'm not actually looking forward to christmas. christmas ambience makes me feel lonely, i don't know why.


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this song has been following me, as if in pursuit:. it's always there, when i open the radio, in the bus, in the fx, at the television (one soap uses this as its soundtrack), in the streets, as i pass by my neighbor's haus...

I'll Never Get Over You (Getting Over Me)

I hear you're taking the town again
havin' a good time with all your good time friends
i don't think that you think of me
you're on your own now, and i'm alone and free
i know that i should get on with my life
but a life lived without you could never be right

as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
long as the rivers run to the sea
i'll never get over you gettin' over me

i try to smile so the hurt won't show
tell everybody i was glad to see you go
but the tears just won't go away
loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
i know that i oughta find someone new
but all i find is myself always thinkin' of you

as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
long as the rivers run to the sea
i'll never get over you gettin' over me

oh, no matter what i do
spending a lifetime to live through
i can't go on like this
i need your touch
you're the only one i've ever loved

as long as the stars shine down from the heavens
long as the rivers run to the sea
i'll never get over you gettin' over me

i'll never get over you gettin' over
i'll never get over you gettin' over me

no, i am not heart-sick anymore! if i was, i probably would have gone mushy, squashy, squishy and might even have fainted.

this song brings no appeal to me anymore. however, everytime i hear this, i feel thankful. thankful that i was able to make it through. thankful that i am no longer hurting. thankful i have come to realize that am strong. thankful that after all, i know i can take life's bigger bumps and humps.